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: How do I say goodbye?
I'll start with a thank you. Thank you, everyone who has ever read and responded to this Live Journal. And thank you, also, to everyone who has ever read this Live Journal and then, later, taken me aside personally to tell me what they thought of it because they didn't want to embarrass me publicly (hahahaha).
Writing on this site has been an enormous help to me when I've been confused, or in doubt or in pain. It's kept me in touch with friends I've missed, and put me in touch with friends I didn't know I missed. I gained tremendous insight into how my life experiences have mirrored the experiences of others, or, in some cases, how truely strange and whacked out my life has been in contrast to other people's lives (an equally edifying discovery, I assure you).
But after nearly four years, I feel that it's time to get out of the goldfish bowl. Looking over all those entries, from my coming out of the closet in 2004, right up through the recent political banter of the 2008 election season, I observe that my best accomplishments have been achievements in philosophy rather than substance. I've been a masterful map-maker but haven't yet followed one to its end. I don't regret all the high-minded prose and public statements of ambition, but I do not feel that continuing to indulge in an epic, existential struggle in cyberspace will bear much more fruit.
Also, there's actual writing to consider. "Actual" in the sense that, were I to put concerted effort behind my writing, I may actually produce a stand-alone work some day that is not just the glib excretion of the moment, but rather a thoughtful, considered piece; something that can be put up to public scrutiny and survive.
Another philosophical dream? Maybe. But that's all you'll get from me, I'm afraid. I'm not dying or becoming a hermit, mind you. I'm just taking a step back from the altar until I've got something to burn.
Thank you again, fellow LiveJournalers and blog-agnostics (blognostics?). Contact me any time, if you have the info. If you don't, I'll get it to you somehow.
With love,
Michael Kieran Finbar Hourihan
I'll start with a thank you. Thank you, everyone who has ever read and responded to this Live Journal. And thank you, also, to everyone who has ever read this Live Journal and then, later, taken me aside personally to tell me what they thought of it because they didn't want to embarrass me publicly (hahahaha).
Writing on this site has been an enormous help to me when I've been confused, or in doubt or in pain. It's kept me in touch with friends I've missed, and put me in touch with friends I didn't know I missed. I gained tremendous insight into how my life experiences have mirrored the experiences of others, or, in some cases, how truely strange and whacked out my life has been in contrast to other people's lives (an equally edifying discovery, I assure you).
But after nearly four years, I feel that it's time to get out of the goldfish bowl. Looking over all those entries, from my coming out of the closet in 2004, right up through the recent political banter of the 2008 election season, I observe that my best accomplishments have been achievements in philosophy rather than substance. I've been a masterful map-maker but haven't yet followed one to its end. I don't regret all the high-minded prose and public statements of ambition, but I do not feel that continuing to indulge in an epic, existential struggle in cyberspace will bear much more fruit.
Also, there's actual writing to consider. "Actual" in the sense that, were I to put concerted effort behind my writing, I may actually produce a stand-alone work some day that is not just the glib excretion of the moment, but rather a thoughtful, considered piece; something that can be put up to public scrutiny and survive.
Another philosophical dream? Maybe. But that's all you'll get from me, I'm afraid. I'm not dying or becoming a hermit, mind you. I'm just taking a step back from the altar until I've got something to burn.
Thank you again, fellow LiveJournalers and blog-agnostics (blognostics?). Contact me any time, if you have the info. If you don't, I'll get it to you somehow.
With love,
Michael Kieran Finbar Hourihan